today there no choir practices were scheduled.
planned to go home and study but suddenly didnt feel like it.
reached home at 3 plus and slacked until now.
sighs..
feeling damn empty without something to do today.
started practicing singing! but it wasnt the syf pieces but funny funny songs that i found in my mp3.
still using my throat to sing i guess?
trying trying hope i can get a solo soon(:
ate a packet of chocolate then went to buy dinner.
hmms..
thats all for now i guess.. my mind's all blank.
wanna go to sleep! rawhs!
Friday, April 20, 2007
NO choir?
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
what's wrong with me nowadays..
i feel sad and gloomy but i still face my peers with mask of smiles.
sigh!
well today's another day in school no choir though
feels a bit weird la but a break would hurt anyone right?
didnt see her today..
maybe i shouldnt even try..
i should avoid her all the time..
that should help me to forget her right?
i dont know what i should really do?
should i treat her as invisible and just walk past her eventhough i see her in the corridors?
can i even speak to her at all?
this is all so vexing..
smsed nicholyn yesterday night..
i guess to her i was feeling emo dunno fell asleep before i read her last message though..
whoops.. i dreamt again..
i cant stop myself
it's something like that dream but.. in a different senario
i think my mind's screwed up..
help me please!?
i feel sad and gloomy but i still face my peers with mask of smiles.
sigh!
well today's another day in school no choir though
feels a bit weird la but a break would hurt anyone right?
didnt see her today..
maybe i shouldnt even try..
i should avoid her all the time..
that should help me to forget her right?
i dont know what i should really do?
should i treat her as invisible and just walk past her eventhough i see her in the corridors?
can i even speak to her at all?
this is all so vexing..
smsed nicholyn yesterday night..
i guess to her i was feeling emo dunno fell asleep before i read her last message though..
whoops.. i dreamt again..
i cant stop myself
it's something like that dream but.. in a different senario
i think my mind's screwed up..
help me please!?
Sunday, April 15, 2007
SECTIONALS!!
today is another day to laze in bed
but i had to get up to go to school
yea you heard me right to school on a saturday for choir practice
sectionals was ok la a bit of stress.. monday had chior auditions for syf.
hope i make it. not i will feel even more useless.
sectionals was fun too..
hahahas
zheng zhi taught me and jackson the first part of the mass dance cool eh..
fun fun:D side track from the practice lor
haha
me and jackson were good students yea!:D
it seems that i cannot focus much nowadays whenever she's around me..
i cant help but look at her..
missed a few duludulus and balabalas here and there coz of that..
well cant blame her..
i can only blame myself for liking her..
sighs.. why am i so emo leh.. crazy lor..
i didnt like her.. i only liked her after we stopped talking..
does that even sound logical??
hmm.. i dunno hahas
well anyway after sectionals went with junxian and the rest to PJC choir concert
hahahs
they rocked man miss ong rocked too its like whooh! hahahs:D
a lot of nice songs.. cords were good here and there.. overall it was good
wild empire was spectacular as always
hahahs:D
highly recommended:D
reached home and went online..
so here i am typing away on my com
talked to stella. she also wants to go for the phantom of the opera! cool i've got a companion now:D
jacqueline and me like becoming so distant now.. hmm.. hope things change for the better
i wanna talk to her..
how?
can someone tell me what to do??
sighs..
but i had to get up to go to school
yea you heard me right to school on a saturday for choir practice
sectionals was ok la a bit of stress.. monday had chior auditions for syf.
hope i make it. not i will feel even more useless.
sectionals was fun too..
hahahas
zheng zhi taught me and jackson the first part of the mass dance cool eh..
fun fun:D side track from the practice lor
haha
me and jackson were good students yea!:D
it seems that i cannot focus much nowadays whenever she's around me..
i cant help but look at her..
missed a few duludulus and balabalas here and there coz of that..
well cant blame her..
i can only blame myself for liking her..
sighs.. why am i so emo leh.. crazy lor..
i didnt like her.. i only liked her after we stopped talking..
does that even sound logical??
hmm.. i dunno hahas
well anyway after sectionals went with junxian and the rest to PJC choir concert
hahahs
they rocked man miss ong rocked too its like whooh! hahahs:D
a lot of nice songs.. cords were good here and there.. overall it was good
wild empire was spectacular as always
hahahs:D
highly recommended:D
reached home and went online..
so here i am typing away on my com
talked to stella. she also wants to go for the phantom of the opera! cool i've got a companion now:D
jacqueline and me like becoming so distant now.. hmm.. hope things change for the better
i wanna talk to her..
how?
can someone tell me what to do??
sighs..
woots! yesterday was the concert! hahahas! still rememebered how much effort was put into it..
hmm.. although results werent that good but... i think it's still okay.. hope choir members were happy with their performance la.
haha.. when we reach vch, me and haosheng sat in the hall at the back we started reminscing bout our past performance in vch.. ahhh good times..
then he said stella said her friend saw something on the celling of the stage.. something bout there being little children wearing white gowns.. hahah.. still i could resist.. i went to see.. twice:P
still there's nothing la.. hahas throughout the time people were checking out the rumor too:P
well we practiced at the foyer and i must say i sounded pretty good.. maybe the acoustics there's nice too i dunno every time choirs rehearsed there seems nice hahah.. a female tourist came and check us out and said "perfect" to our tequiero... haha we were so full of ourselves right there and then..
went on stage and rehearsed.. wow.. really brings back memories of the times i performed when i was in st gabs choir.. things now's so different and unfamiliar.. last time me and haosheng were the ones telling ppl what to do.. haha now we had to stand there and listen to things we used to say to our juniors ironic isnt it?
well then it's dinner lor.. me and hs took the lift to the first floor and ate there and discussed certain things.. hahah we settled on singing a song for the end of year concert with PHS and holy high yearly
hahah:D
longest time! hahah:D hope i can sing the solo there yea! sighs.. my long wish la! sian i overcame stage fright like long ago ler..
then mr na came and we chatted a while with him.. talked bout miss ong and such, we finished up our dinner and went back to the hall for another round of practice.
after that we went to change and do our make up.. mushi did my hair :D cool eh.. we are mushi duplicates!
concert time!!
hahahs! fun fun everyone was so nervous and it's feels so surreal to me.. haha i was like so calm admist everyone's nervous soul.. keep telling them to calm down and breathe in and out slowly..
hahas..
well surprise surprise the concert went quite well la.. of course we sped up a lot of times and stuff.. hahas.. i peeked at her whenever i had the chance.. and pitching was a problem
but they werent too serious la.. at least everyone enjoyed themselves.. hahahs:D saw dexter..
nicholyn got a whole bunch of flowers hahahas:D jealous leh!!
hahahas i got some myself.. nice nice hehes
well we ended with a bang i suppose you can say that hahahas:D everyone had fun and a great learning experience for everyone and me too..
learn much from miss ong and the choir people.. really love them..
Monday, April 09, 2007
if only
every morning i stand by the gate
hoping to take a glance at her
i want to be alone with her to tell her my feelings
but it never could happen, that i know
because we're not even friends anymore
every chance i have i would peek at her
always hoping she would look back
those eyes of hers are now so unfamiliar
she's never the one i intended to
but some things are unpredictable
if i could just gather every ounce of courage
just to speak to her
would i be contented?
will it just stop there?
i guess i'll never know
i lookingf into the crowd and i see everyone else
everyone else but her
is this predestined? that we are not even fated to be together
if only i could see her smile at me again
if only
hoping to take a glance at her
i want to be alone with her to tell her my feelings
but it never could happen, that i know
because we're not even friends anymore
every chance i have i would peek at her
always hoping she would look back
those eyes of hers are now so unfamiliar
she's never the one i intended to
but some things are unpredictable
if i could just gather every ounce of courage
just to speak to her
would i be contented?
will it just stop there?
i guess i'll never know
i lookingf into the crowd and i see everyone else
everyone else but her
is this predestined? that we are not even fated to be together
if only i could see her smile at me again
if only