today was a normal day..
went to school to do pw and to get my h3 application chopped.
well did pw on my own. manxu was there but of course was not of any help whatsoever..
yongzhi and haikal didnt turn up as expected.
went for chinese and slept thru the whole lecture. while the people behind were giggling away.
bored to death.

Saturday
went to bugis street and bugis junction with my mother and sister.
well went around shops to look for clothes.
buying clothes can be really depressing for me
haha tried out a few outfits but they are too tight.
walking around bugis street, i saw Valarie first 3 months friend...
i was so stunned.. we looked at each other then she was unsure if she knew me. haha she started to raise her hand to say hi but stopped, so i raised mine. we smiled and went on our way.
seeing her reminded me of my time at MI whoo.. all the people i met.. all the things that happened. flash back!
things bought: 4 shirts

Sunday
me and my parents went to marina square to shop. walked around and shop-hopped for a while. we went to top man, G2000, and Zara... went to many shoe shops.
surprising thing was i saw christopher and zican.. they said they were going to buy ball zican going bball pro* haha(:
well got a sms from Anna saying she saw me.. so many ppl met in one day...
went to suntec after that.. my mum was doubting my sense of direction.. haha. when we finally got there i had this triumphant look on my face:D
mom was left speechless..
went around suntec. bought donuts from donut factory. haha.. it was amazingly fast thou..
walked around and bought a pair of converse shoes. (emo kid syndrome(: ) i bought it coz my old pair of designer shoes went smelly after being soaked in the rain and my endless hours of basketball playing..
i'm really a spendthrift..
i'm a little hooked to the song Unwell by Matchbox 20 and Your Guardian Angel by The Red Apparatus Jumpsuit..

well this weekend i spent around 120 dollars on clothes and shoes.. is that my accomplishment? hmmm hahas(:

well it's been a while since i blogged..
after promos a lot of things have happened. the sudden surge of emotions everyday on top of the misery i feel already.
i got an A for econs and B for maths and i'm quite happy for my results. i think if i did badly for my promos i'd have crumbled like a cookie.
i realised that the things i've done for the year have gone to waste.
there's 0736 and me.. two separate entities.
no matter how much i've tried, superficial people despise me because i'm a fat and ugly guy.
i have no talent and no use what so ever.. therefore i'm not regarded as a friend nor a classmate for that fact.
aaron was right. i should really ask myself if i belong to the class..
i wonder what i've done wrong to deserve this.
well i could only blame myself for landing myself in this state.

choir has stopped again.. like a heart going thru cardiac arrest again and again.
everytime we gain the momentum to sing, someone would stop it. this is irritating.
well i borrowed the electronic keyboard from eileen, thanks girl. hoping to practice my pitching and playing.
i think i suck.
i've no money and no talent
i cant learn what i want..
i really want to learn the piano and violin, but... i'm too poor and too busy..
maybe i should just be satisfied with what i have now.

i'm really tired now.
i always cheer people and encourage them, but it is i who need cheering up and encouragement. i need friends..
it may seem i have a lot of them but how many are actually close enough to know the real me?
no one does..
no one bothers to try..
everyone rejects me..
i'm an outcast
i'm a nobody..
a useless good for nothing nobody

and yes i'm a hopeless romantic and i still like her