Thursday, October 18, 2007

well it's been a while since i blogged..
after promos a lot of things have happened. the sudden surge of emotions everyday on top of the misery i feel already.
i got an A for econs and B for maths and i'm quite happy for my results. i think if i did badly for my promos i'd have crumbled like a cookie.
i realised that the things i've done for the year have gone to waste.
there's 0736 and me.. two separate entities.
no matter how much i've tried, superficial people despise me because i'm a fat and ugly guy.
i have no talent and no use what so ever.. therefore i'm not regarded as a friend nor a classmate for that fact.
aaron was right. i should really ask myself if i belong to the class..
i wonder what i've done wrong to deserve this.
well i could only blame myself for landing myself in this state.

choir has stopped again.. like a heart going thru cardiac arrest again and again.
everytime we gain the momentum to sing, someone would stop it. this is irritating.
well i borrowed the electronic keyboard from eileen, thanks girl. hoping to practice my pitching and playing.
i think i suck.
i've no money and no talent
i cant learn what i want..
i really want to learn the piano and violin, but... i'm too poor and too busy..
maybe i should just be satisfied with what i have now.

i'm really tired now.
i always cheer people and encourage them, but it is i who need cheering up and encouragement. i need friends..
it may seem i have a lot of them but how many are actually close enough to know the real me?
no one does..
no one bothers to try..
everyone rejects me..
i'm an outcast
i'm a nobody..
a useless good for nothing nobody

and yes i'm a hopeless romantic and i still like her