yesterday's so surreal..
you made my heart run faster and faster
made me wait.
and made my heart stop~
you made me feel human, so intensely human that it feels great.
once again, you made me happy(:

today is a really weird day.
i've been sick for a while, and today is the new low.
i feel tired in lessons and i would doze off as and when my body decides to give up and i dont realise it.
in addition to that, i felt the strange gush of emo-ness today.
since the start of the day. i didnt feel like sms-ing her. felt reluctant to go for pe. wanted to skip choir practice at stgabs.
really really burdened by something. but i cant say what.
i'm thinking it's my illness, but there's something more to that.

i have this strange dream while i was dozing off in class today.
that feeling. strangely familiar, a sense of icy coldness, a sense of loneliness.
then it just stopped. like my heart died in my dream.
and i just stood there watching her go.
i know i promised her i wont be emo la. but i need reassurence sometimes? i think.