i can be so much of a jerk sometimes.
i hate it when i do things uncontrollably, it's like another personality of mine.
maybe i should keep away from people i will hurt, or keep away from people who hates me.
this sucks. well at least she's not mad at me already. but there are people mad at me still.
i'm sorry for being a jerk, there are so many things in my mind so many things happening at the same time that i couldnt choose what to do. i didnt know what i said or what i was doing. what i knew and thought was wrong or perhaps had change after so long.
i wanted someone to tell my thoughts to.
but she's still not yet the one. she tells her friends almost everything, i dont know if i can tell her though i really want to.
all these feelings, all these pain.
i really want someone to share my burden. someone to share my pain.
i want it to be you.
i saw the flaws in people and the other sides of people. i dont know what to do or how to react.
maybe i should just be the real me. not the one now hiding behind a mask.
what should i do.
i want to talk to you so badly but it seems you just dont have the time for me.
will we work out? i dont know.
i saw your flaw but i still love you