today i know
how much i mean to her
i could die infront of her
and she would just stare
maybe a smirk on her face
our eyes cant meet
without her looking away
i cant smile at her
i cant look at her
i cant be with her
never gone
my feelings for her
someone please rip her from my heart
rip all the things i like about her
block off all attractions
cut off all connections
prevent the love from every leaking out again
never again please

when will the day come
when stop waking up in tears
i can feel the dream has ended
because i can feel the pain back in my heart
with you now gone
nothing can fill this blackhole void in my heart
my whole world is collasping
at the sight of you
your laughter
your smile
still captures my soul
free me
free me from all this pain and suffering
dont leave me dying
dont leave me
please

my friends around tell me to give up..
have i not?
i cant control myself from liking her..
all i can do is stop the courtship..

she's still not used to it...
i know..
but what can i do?
i may not be the dream she wanted to come true..
but i'll always be the man in love with her..

stop me..
save me..
help...

woots! i got a new laptop to play with haha!(: cant get my hands off it! die ler:P
anyway now "studying" with mushi at macs.. heehee he's studying i'm slacking..
wow! just saw his cool blog!! impressed impressed! hehehe! must try to beat him sia!(:
woots 2 weeks left to midyears already.. well 1 week for me coz next week there are stuff to do.. stgabs choir practice and camp woots cant wait.
what a hectic first half of the month for me..
so many things happened..
1st 3 months class chalet( first time i drank )
choir chalet!( second time i drank third and forth)
class chalet( first time i drank beer )
hahah!(: oops
great! my PW group's finally moving on.. decided to send an e-mail to the assistant director of the boys home yea!(:
okay okay should get back to studying now.. hadnt dont anything yet!! damn! stress